Pity Party

-Nathalie Ramirez

-June 24, 2021

From the book ‘The Adventures of Alice in Wonderland’

I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this

How long can one stand with no support

No real success in cleansing washed minds

Not much sign of life surrounding me

Every once in a while there’s a flicker

But no one wants to stand alone

They can’t stand out by being the only one to agree with me

Better that I expose myself and they’ll all stand there looking

Waiting to see what’s ok with society

Look up the Asher experiment

People will stand the wrong way as long as they’re not standing out

So what do I do

How do I get them to see that they’re in a zoo

Afraid of leaving Wonderland

It’s not real

This illusion we’re in

That old normal that’s wanted again

Is a construct of the human mind

Shaped entirely through time

How long have we been here

The bodies are starting to rot

Tell someone about vitamin deficiencies

And all they can talk about is the shot

I had an uncle pass away the other day

Another one

I told my dad about ivermectin

About how many who died were vitamin d deficient

I’m sad but I’m more angry

Why don’t people get pissed off

When they find out how we’ve been experimented on

Why don’t they care

They keep putting their masks on

Monkey see monkey do

I can’t stand it anymore

Losing my patience

Uneasy to control

Why do I need it

Why do I want it

Why do I have to spend so much time

Forgiving those who don’t do enough

Why do I care so much

The fate of the world

Is not on my shoulders

The fate of all people

Relies on their own understanding

I keep trying and trying

I was already giving up

It’s so hard to give so much

And get not much in return

It’s not tit for tat

That’s not why I do it

But the amount of dirt I’ve put in that hole

Doesn’t come close to how much there is

And yet most won’t even scratch the surface

What do I do with that

I want to turn away

Do my own thing

Save all my energy

And put it toward my family

I can join city councils

To try and change things for the whole

But those same people

Won’t help themselves

That’s why it’s hard for me to do

Cos I want to teach others to fish

Not clean messes that keep messing up

I want to be there

Be that light tower

I may not be strong enough

The whole of the people are corrupt

Greedy

Lazy

Ill intentions

A true change would have to occur

For things to really change

For those helping to really get through

Otherwise we’re wiping crap with crap

Towels need washing

Clean water needs access

But for that to happen most need to be educated

We need recognition that the towels are dirty

We need to know how to wash them

Know why it’s important

The consequences of what happens when the towels are dirty

The benefits of them being clean

A cycle recycled

I feel so hopeless

Knowing most won’t read

Knowing my children lack a community

I’m tired and lonely

Like minds are scarce

So much left to be forgiven

So much sin to discharge

So much pain to leave behind

Alright already

My pity party is done

A revolution is sparking

That is for sure

Even if it’s only 10%

Of the population

Waiting for change

Not much real power

Driving in our lanes

So we wait and we wait

Till justice is done

Maybe just maybe

Real change has begun

#calixtosgarden #plantingseeds #wordplay #todaymycupishalfempty

Published by Nathalie Ramirez

My love for humanity, and for the planet, has set me on a path of healing through love, compassion, and understanding. I'm originally from a big city in the big state of Texas, making my personality quite large. I then landed in a small town that's out-of-puzzles gorgeous where people still wave at each other when coming across each other in the street. This transition has helped my development and tried relationships with distance and sacrifice. I have 2 beautiful boys, Silas and Declan, and their loving father, Curtis, who make my world go round. My political views all stem from wanting to protect this beauty in all its forms.

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