-May 8, 2021
I haven’t written anything in a while, as I’m sure some of you have noticed. My sincerest apologies for my absence during such a critical time.
I feel as though I’ve reached an impasse, whether to continue on my activist path or rather to spend all of my energies in raising my kids in the way I wish to see the world.
We have been so thoroughly managed and picked through by the cabal, they are merciless and have no compassion, suffice it to say they intend on reaching complete control yet most still can’t see this. And if they do they don’t believe it, or believe only a portion of it.
Last year in March Del Bigtree released a video that talked about how Convid is a hoax, how it cannot happen from SarsCov2, and he was so sure this would be all over just by people seeing that. I’ve had that feeling many times, when I think, “Eureka! When people see this then they will see!” Sadly this is not the case.
One more example of this feeling is when Grantly Dick-Read wrote “Childbirth Without Fear” in which he helped a woman who was not civilized give birth. What he meant by uncivilized was not her character but the fact that she was in no way aware of what the mainstream media had to say, the tv that magazines the stories they push tell us that childbirth is the most painful experience a woman will go through. Well this woman hadn’t seen this, didn’t know this, so she experienced no pain in her childbirth. Dr. Dick-Read tended to more women who were just like this one and he was amazed at what he was seeing, he was so sure that if everyone knew this then women wouldn’t have to be afraid of childbirth anymore. He had the same “Eureka!” feeling. Dr. Dick-Read wrote this book in 1944.
We are guided to believe what we believe, and if we question the “norm” we are indeed called crazy. I was used to this, I advocated for years before Convid, but then the election steal happened and everyone reverted back to sleep, and this is affecting me more than I’d like to admit.
It’s so hard when you tell people the truth with facts and science to prove it and still people don’t believe you, it’s frustrating and draining and if I allow it to it eats at me. I speak the truth and still I’m not heard. That’s not true I am heard by some, so why do I feel like this? Is it the need for everyone to conform? I see people agreeing with me on Fakebook then see them wearing masks out in public, I just don’t know what to do with that.
I’m the crazy one! Lol I’ve been ok with that for a long time, it describes how different I am than everyone else, I’m ok with that and am drawn to others who also don’t “fit in” with the crowd. This still doesn’t take away how much it hurts to not be accepted, or at least considered. But then this would mean people would have to stop being entertained and start researching, this is what the cabal depends on us not to do, and they are right in doing so as many just won’t take the time to research.
So did Biden really steal the election or is this just what the media wants us believe? Many have shared countless pictures of green screens and fake studios portraying the story they wish to tell. Some things did change during Trump’s first term, many things in fact that completely change the playing field. For one Trump took away the ownership of the Federal Reserve from the cabal and put it back into the hands of the people. This one is huge, it prevents them from keeping us as slaves. This was also where they got a lot of their flow of cash, where they stole our flow of cash.
Does anyone remember when all the CEO’s stepped down last year? I think it was in February, even the Queen stepped down from being the Queen. This didn’t get as much friction as I wish it had, alas there was no spotlight shone on this by the media. Now Bezos and Gates are getting divorced making it so they can unload their corporate shares in an offshore account.
We are so undereducated we don’t understand what’s going on, a lot of these chess moves make sense when you understand the laws, what is and what was set up by them. A part of me wants to believe this is already over, has been over, that the White Hats did in fact defeat the Black Hats and we are just seeing illusions of what really is. Then I see things like Ivanka Trump pushing the Convid vaxx and the second dose, I used to think, “well, that’s what the people want isn’t it?” But it’s so dangerous to push something that’s killing people. One can argue that Convid is killing people, I’d be willing to bet that the Convid vaxx has killed more people than has the combo SarsCov2 coronaviruses. If it even is that as well, there is overwhelming information on the side effects of 5G; now what is the coincidence here that 5G towers are being installed world-wide, even more so than before, to create a dome above us. Think Hunger Games.
For a fact I can say that Convid has not been isolated, there is no autopsy in the world that can show the Convid virus, it does not exist, only in our minds does it exist. Prove me wrong, please.
Gas attacks, insect attacks, psychological warfare, all true and real and at their disposal, so if it came down to fighting, we would lose. But that’s not it.
I have one thing that pushes me along, it has pushed me for as long as I can remember, that is my belief in the universe. Maybe it should be the universes’ belief in me. There is a plan, I know it, I feel it, the universe has told me so, I have full faith.
So while I have faith, it sometimes gets mixed up with my hope, hope that we can trust Trump and that he will be taking back control in June as many Anons have been saying. Yeah we had many predictions before so how can we believe this one? I don’t know, but I know that the end cannot be the cabal in complete control, for if it is it will be the end of me and my kind, the questioners, the believers, the fighters. I just don’t believe this to be true, as long as I’m breathing I will never stop fighting, there are others like me, and we are much more powerful than the cabal.
It takes just one person to change the world, those brave and courageous enough to believe that are the ones that do. I choose to believe this, to hold on to this then to accept that my kids don’t have a future. My kids will be very educated in all ways, pre-war elementary school work can be considered college level today, well this is what my kids will know, this is how I ultimately fight back.
I see the world and how so many are stuck between a rock and a hard place and my heart aches for them, for those who are the bread winners for their families forced to wear masks all day and now forced to take the Convid vaxx or their hours will be cut. We woke up and found ourselves in the middle of a shit puddle and it’s like quicksand pulling us down with what seems like no time to figure out a remedy to get out of said shit puddle. My partner and I woke up years ago and we are still trying to find our way out, so what hope is there for the layman?
I see some saying that only some are chosen and not all will make into the kingdom of heaven, I use these terms loosely as I believe heaven is on earth, but that means that some will have to be left out, left behind, and some well meaning individuals say this may have to be good riddance. Living in a world without the nonbelievers…well morally I just don’t know what to make of that, we are Love and Compassion and Love and Compassion do not leave any men behind.
I don’t know quite where we are headed, where we are going, I can only say we go with Love and Faith, and so we will walk into heaven on earth, whatever that is; this is what I believe.
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